// future living //

less words, more pictures.

today i'm struggling with a cold.

and have been unable to think of a decent subject for a blog post the past. . . 

several hours.

my mind is a blur of exhaustion, lord of the flies, and sunshine, 

and also my book.  

but right now, i have decided to share with you some future hopes.

not big hopes, but little ones.

ones that might be petty and silly to some people.

but who cares what they think, right? 

lately, i've caught myself thinking a lot about my future apartment,

 (a house may happen before an apartment, but we'll just stick with the apt.)

and with the help of pinterest, have found life forms of my dreams and ideas.

|| apartment ideas ||

       

life-size paintings or photographs on my walls is ideal

        

or painted canvases hung from my bedroom wall.

         

messy pillows and lots of epic blankets

      

and a duvet cover that blows all others out of the water.

       

an accent wall that's all its own

         

and a wall that i can do anything and everything to.

 

twinkle lights, twinkle lights

           

a desk where i can study, work, and write blog posts at

            

pictures, words, light and plants scattered everywhere

(just in case you already hadn't gotten that memo)

                   

and adequate shelving for my many, many books

all pictures via pinterest

. .

over all i wish it to be full of hope, life, and passion. 

where one feels at home, but also inspired and refreshed.

so for now i'll dream, hope and plan.

and do my best to apply all of this to the room i have right now.

thanks for viewing,

<3 eva

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"there is nothing truly more artistic than loving people"
vincent van gogh // via pinterest

// beneath the stars //

some of my favorite thoughts are about stars.

not just the twinkling lights in the sky,

but the roaring balls of fire millions of miles away that light up our sky.

the ones that somehow, in all their raging plasma,

give us the feeling of serenity.

they're so simple, yet so vast.

it is at night in the cool after the heat, staring up at the infinity of stars

that humans gather together in mind and hearts 

and realize just how small we are.

we are small beings, gifted with thought and freedom of actions, 

that live less than a hundred years, and fight and live and survive 

on the only planet that can sustain life,

the only planet that has the perfect star, that we so lovingly named the SUN,

to give us warmth and renewed strength.

this star was perfectly placed by a perfect GOD,

a centimeter closer and we would die the death of being burned alive, instantly.

a centimeter farther away and we would freeze, just as instantly.

and we lay in the grass and contemplate why we're here,

what our purpose is,

what is beyond the millions of star,

we lay and try to wrap our minds around the fact that there are hundreds, millions, of galaxy's beside ours,

that there is no end to space, it just goes

 ON

AND          ON

A N D        O N

 F O R E V E R

 {into infinity}

between each star,

there is an endless emptiness of nothing.

it is cold and vacant, 

there is no gravity,

no noise,

no life.

. . . . .

we've named these stars,

in moments of love,

and pass them down to each generation.

we point to the stars and say 

"look, those are called the PLEIADES, the seven sisters,

that is ORION and his mighty bow,

there's LEO, the lion killed by hercules,

and HYADES, the five sisters who weep for their brother's death."

for while we change,

and the earth with us,

the stars do not.

<3 eva

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i've come to realize that even just being alive being able to breathe,
is something grand and something to be celebrated daily.
S.B // via 

// a kindred spirit //

"BUT PEARLS ARE FOR TEARS, THE OLD LEGEND SAYS," GILBERT HAD OBJECTED. 

"I'M NOT AFRAID OF THAT. AND TEARS CAN BE HAPPY AS WELL AS SAD. 

MY HAPPIEST MOMENTS HAVE BEEN WITH TEARS IN MY EYES, 

WHEN MARILLA TOLD ME I MIGHT STAY AT GREEN GABLES,

 WHEN MATTHEW GAVE ME THE FIRST PRETTY DRESS I EVER HAD,

 WHEN I HEART THAT YOU WERE GOING TO RECOVER FROM THE FEVER. 

SO GIVE ME THE PEARLS FOR OUR TROTH RING, GILBERT, AND I'LL WILLING ACCEPT THE SORROW OF LIFE WITH ITS JOY." 

-ANNE'S HOUSE OF DREAMS

via pinterest

no one will ever be a better gilbert than jonathan crombie. 

he was from the race of joseph, 

a kindred spirit, 

and resides in our hearts 

and in our memories.

via pinterest

jonathan crombie (1966-2015)

<3 eva

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we were born to be the best of friends anne.
you've thwarted destiny long enough.
anne of green gables // via pinterest

// life haunts and its okay //

it is life that we fear. 

the future.

the present.

the past.

it all haunts us in different ways.

but we can't let it get to us,

we have to look up where Jesus sits,

not down where the dust clouds our way,

where our weary feet stumble and fall,

and our knees get cut up and we cry out.

we sob into our pillows thinking that no one can understand our confused, hazy, tired minds.

look up.

look to wear he sits,

waiting with arms open wide,

his eyes are understanding,

there is gentle chiding is in his voice,

"why did you not run to me, my child? have i not told you i am here?

you sin. you doubt my power, you doubt my wisdom in knowing whats best for you.

my love, do not doubt me again. 

did i not endure death for you?

did i not become human? 

i know the struggles, the temptations, the tears, you live through.

and trust me when i tell you,

i let you undergo them so that you may become like Me."

life haunts us all, i know. 

but sometimes ghosts aren't malicious. 

<3 eva

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we are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well
that death will tremble to take us
charles bukowski // via pinterest 

// nine-fifteen //

OUR BRAINS ARE SICK BUT THAT'S OKAY

twentyonepilots

|-/

-eva

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via tumblr

// dear fifteen-year-old self //

dear past self of the age fifteen,

fifteen is when i'd say you're going to really start changing 

but then again, i'd say that about a lot of years.

thirteen and sixteen are also big years of change.

and i know that i will add to that lists as i grow older.

{and apparently you will also start to ramble in the near future}

here's a small list, old self, that may help you as you grow.

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i.
keep reading and don't ever stop;

especially when its God's words

ii.
when someone just makes you want to scream,

swallow and turn the other cheek.

iii.
don't judge other people. 

for goodness' sake, what benefit do you even get from that?

iv.
people everywhere are hurting,

yes, even that arrogant person in front of you.

v.
go outside. feel the breeze, feel the grass,

feel alive.

vi.
the time spent with entertainment vs. time spent with the family,

isn't as precious as the latter.

vii.
boys are for the future, not the present,

but that doesn't mean they can't be your friend.

viii.
you can always learn something,
so listen and study hard.

ix.
live in the now as much as possible,

x.
makes goals for the future, but work towards them in present.

xi.
love is life

xii.
strive to be kind all the time.

xiii.
God is there and will listen. He will give you peace,
He will answer your prayers.

xiv.
ask questions.

xv.
go out of your way to talk to people, draw them out, become their friend

xvi.
earn to communicate.
it is a skill that you will benefit from your entire life.

xvii.
go outside your comfort zone.
do things that you don't want to, and experience new things.

xviii.
if you want something to happen,
do it yourself.

xix.
and most of all, love Jesus, love people, and love your life.

<3 Eva
{your seventeen-year-old self}

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"it is impossible to love deeply without sacrifice.."
elizabeth elliot // via pinterest

// musing //

do you ever have those days where you're very thoughtful?

not depressed, or sad,

just very filled with thoughts?

today is cloudy, breezy and slightly chilly.

i'm going to draw and listen to twenty-one pilots {again}

and perhaps drink some cider.

{and filter through the many thoughts filling my mind.}

what does your day look like?

<3 Eva

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sometimes you gotta bleed to know
that you're alive and have a soul.
tear in my heart // twenty one pilots // via

// lyrics for thought //

// twenty-one pilots //

- holding onto you -

i'm taking over my body, back in control, no more shotty,

i bet a lot of me was lost, 't's uncrossed and 'i's undotted,

i fought it a lot it seems a lot like flesh is all i got,

not anymore, flesh out the door, swat,

i must've forgot, you can't trust me,

i'm open a moment and close when you show it before you know it i'm lost at sea,

and now that i write and think about it, and the story unfolds,

You should take my life, You should take my soul.

You are surrounding all my surroundings, 

sounding down the mountain range of my left-side brain,

You are surrounding all my surroundings,

twisting the kaleidoscope behind both of my eyes.

AND I'LL BE HOLDING ON TO YOU

remember the moment you know exactly where you're going,

'cause the next moment, before you know it, time is slowing and it's frozen still,

and the window sill looks really nice, right?

you think twice about your life, it probably happens at night, right?

fight it, take the pain, ignite it, 

tie a noose around your mind loose enough to breathe fine and tie it to a tree,

tell it, "you belong to me,

this ain't a noose, this is a leash, 

and i have news for you, you must obey me."

You are surroundings all my surroundings, 

sounding down the mountain range of my left-side brain,

You are surrounding all my surroundings,

twisting the kaleidoscope behind both of my eyes.

ENTERTAIN MY FAITH

lean with it, rock with it,

when we gonna stop with it?

lyrics that mean nothing, we were gifted with thought,

is it time to move our feet to an introspective beat?

it ain't the speakers that bump hearts, it's our hearts that make the beat.

AND I'LL BE HOLDING ON TO YOU

-twenty one pilots-

its a lot of lyrics, but its worth the read.

go here to give the song a listen

<3 eva

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sometimes quiet is violent 
 twenty-one pilots // via pinterest

// love takes effort //

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their eyes meet across the assembly. she gives him a half smile and her shoulder rises in a shy manner.

it is, perhaps, the same drill we all know: eyes meet, eyes lock, love at first sight.

and as it result it becomes cliche. because love at first sight is labeled that: cliche.

but they don't know that. they don't know that the world has put a label on the emotions that are surging through their heart and body at that moment. 

"its not real" the world says, "it'll pass" 

but the love is still there, 

and after their eyes meet, then they do. 

awkward conversations ensue. 

as well as passionate talks about life, Jesus, and eventually them.

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years later, the cliche love has turned into something beautiful.

but not without heartache and struggles.

love is not easy, for love is not just a feeling, but an action.  

it is choosing to love someone each and every day.  

to continue on even when you feel like quitting.

you see, the cliche part of love at first sight is not that it happens,

but that it's perfect. 

love at first sight brings happy nothing-will-ever-go-wrong endings.

love at first sight brings perfect relationships.

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relationships aren't perfect,

you have to be willing to work at them.

to be selfless, patient, kind, forgiving,

to talk things over when you feel like never speaking again.

to take your eyes off each other and place them on God.

to sacrifice things for others

to find peace in God not men when things go wrong.

to realize that men and woman are human. 

and they will disappoint, they will let down, they will sin.

and you need to be ready to say 

"let's ask God for help, and start again. afresh; covered in his grace."

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and when their little girl grows to find her own love,

they will teach her.

they will tell her:

love is not easy, but it is worth it

-Eva

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Love takes sacrifice 
Love cuts like a knife 
Sometimes love will make you cry 
Love’s not easy 
But it’s worth it
worth it // francesca battistelli // via pinterest

// so comes april //

it is hard to convince the cozy part of my mind that it is indeed april.

frosty air and big sweaters are now fading into the distance,

while sun-warmed faces and flipflops are coming into view. 

april seems to me to be the beginning of everything new.

while january is the start of the year, april is the start of a season.

january continues winter, but april starts spring.

while i am sad that winter is over (for i do love my cozy book nights),

i look forward with eagerness to what summer of 2015 has in store for me.

i learned a lot last summer, most of which was hard to learn, but it was worth it. 

and i know that God's constantly teaching me things and i pray that i'm teachable to his lessons;

to his process of making me more like Himself.

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sometimes when a month dies and another takes its place,

we are so busy we do not even notice.

or if we do it its only because of some event, or the fact that the number changes in the date, 

or our life slows down or speeds up due to the month change.

but have we have really stopped to think about the months?

everything from its name to the actual meaning of a month is interesting in itself.

i find it to be refreshing, like taking a step back and looking at the larger picture.

here are a few things you may have already known about april, or perhaps not.

 i hope that you will find as much pleasure reading them as i did discovering them. 

- april is associated with spring in the northern hemisphere, but with autumn in the southern hemisphere. 
thus, october is the southern hemisphere's april - 

- april's birth flower is a daisy -

- april starts on the same day of the week as july does every year, except leap year -

- april's zodiac signs are aries and taurus -

-it is the month of my youngest sister's celebration of birth-

- the original latin title, aprilis, is most likely derived from the latin verb aperire which means to open,

an illusion to the opening of flowers and the beginning of spring -

- easter, or resurrection day, is celebrated the first sunday after the first full moon - 

- april's birthstone is a diamond - 

- it is the national poetry month in the usa - 

- it has been suggested that april was originally the goddess venus' month -

- patriots' day is the third monday of april. it is a civic holiday to commemorate the anniversary of the first battles of the american revolution on april 19th, 1775 - 

what do you associate with april?

-Eva

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bring me all your dreams, you dreamer.
bring me all your heart melodies;
that i may wrap them in a blue cloud-cloth,
away from the too-rough fingers of the world.
// langston hues //
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