Friday, August 18, 2017

bleeding [living] red

blood 

is the powerful liquid

that courses through our bodies.

we say without it we wouldn't be alive,

and perhaps that's why I love the color red so much. 

it means life. 

it's bold and unforgiving in being 

itself.


it doesn't worry about what it should be,

or if it looks good as other colors,

it just is.

fearlessly being the color that some people

hate

and other's

love.

<3 Eva
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I can't think of any better representation of beauty than
someone who is unafraid to be herself.
-Emma Stone | via

Sunday, May 21, 2017

that someday - is now

this is the day that we talked about for 

so long.

these are the moments that we would dream about and plan

so thoughtfully.

I wonder what my 15 year old self would think

of 19 year old me. 

she would probably be impressed, perhaps jealous.

she would probably think that she has no problems, 

that she's healthy and never has bad days.

but it couldn't be farther from the truth.

yes, 19 me is in a much better place mentally;

and she's fulfilling one dream after another,

but she still has bad days.

she still trips and falls and has questions that never seem to have 

answers.

she still stays up late and thinks deep thoughts.

she still cries on a dime and finds faults with herself.

and you know what?



I'm fine with that.

I'm happy. happier than I've ever been.

because with every struggle there's a blessing to count.

and with every unanswered question, late night, and bad day,

there's my God welcomes me with open arms.

I want to live for what I've been given.

I don't want to perpetually live in the future wishing I could see what it holds.

I want to live in the now, where I'm happy and thriving.

because young me would be excited to someday reach the stage 

I'm in now. 

<3 Eva
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but it was Jesus who taught me there was
nothing I could really lose if I had Him
-unknown | via

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

ashes & angst

what have we here?

teenage angst?

just when we thought it was over.


but perhaps I don't want it to be over.

as painful as it can be, 

I always learn from it.

with each little [big] lesson I learn,

a part of me dies;

and in place of it, a new part grows.

like a beautiful daisy amongst the 

ashes.

and each year I look back and see how each part of me

has changed,

flower by flower,

into a new person.

<3 Eva
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it hurt because it mattered
-john green | via