tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79464886630284200742024-03-13T11:29:03.511-07:00The Raven + The WriterEvelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.comBlogger156125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-6813805179991953822017-12-20T22:05:00.000-08:002017-12-20T22:05:47.933-08:00searching<div style="text-align: center;">
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now north and south.</div>
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what do I have to tell you?</div>
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it's an endless search that ends in tears,</div>
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sometimes all I can see are fears.</div>
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but what do I have to do except claim,</div>
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that I don't know what to do</div>
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this is it</div>
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I'm to blame.</div>
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I meant to find the reason for my thoughts, </div>
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but instead I found the purpose </div>
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for my life.</div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-68254409842308563702017-10-09T23:20:00.001-07:002017-10-09T23:20:11.274-07:00experience the pain [freedom]<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
"fear might be the death of me, fear leads to anxiety" </div>
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these <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MEiVnNNpJLA" target="_blank">words</a> are from tyler joseph, </div>
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and I feel they are the best description of my mental state lately.</div>
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summer was chaotic, to say the least. </div>
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I will admit part of me thrived on the chaos, being busy </div>
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going going</div>
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but pushing my body and mind to it's limits took it's toll</div>
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when I returned to a "normal schedule" and things </div>
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my mind starting spilling and </div>
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overflowing</div>
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with everything I had pushed aside for months.</div>
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change was happening daily, </div>
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and my mind was in a constant agitated state,</div>
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unconscious that I was scared of all the change. </div>
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but I continued to push it down.</div>
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aside.</div>
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anywhere but my daily brain.</div>
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close to 2 years of depression doesn't leave you the same.</div>
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one thing it left me with was a fear of slipping back into depression. </div>
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"fear might be the death of me, fear leads to anxiety"</div>
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so yes, I avoided depression but comfortably slipped into anxiety </div>
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anxiety is different than depression. </div>
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depression leaves you listless,</div>
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your thoughts are negative and heavy;</div>
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weighing on your mind like a mighty burden never to be explained.</div>
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anxiety, however, is the agitated state I mentioned earlier.</div>
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it's like your thoughts are running a mile a minute with no end goal.</div>
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instead of one thought controlling your state of mind,</div>
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it's a thousand worried thoughts,</div>
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competing for your attention. </div>
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your mind feels like it was struck by a lightening bolt and </div>
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is still running on the energy left behind.</div>
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but then God revealed to me that I was trying to control the situations.</div>
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I was holding on with white knuckles claiming,</div>
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"NO, you cannot change, I am in control here"</div>
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but I'm not. I never was, and I never will be.</div>
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He is. forever and always.</div>
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that was a week ago. it was a big break through because it revealed the bottom line:</div>
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I was scared of change, of not being in control. </div>
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so I released my grip and asked God for forgiveness for trying to usurp Him.</div>
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but that didn't stop the fear of depression.</div>
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and it built up with fear of life, </div>
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of expectations, </div>
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of the future,</div>
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the present,</div>
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it all became too much. </div>
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and I thought about why my highschool years felt different, mentally.</div>
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something was missing.</div>
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and God revealed my second issue: feeling.</div>
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I've been so busy, and pushing aside the anxiety,</div>
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that I haven't let myself <i>experience </i>the painful anxiety fully.</div>
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that sounds like it would make it worse, but believe me it doesn't.</div>
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if you let yourself fully experience there's a better chance you can move on.</div>
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it penetrates your soul, </div>
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soaks your heart, </div>
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then becomes a memory.</div>
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one that was difficult, and painful in the moment,</div>
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but one that shaped you and made you</div>
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who you are.</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">my flesh and my heart may fail, <br />but God is the strength of my heart and portion forever<br />psalm 73:26 | <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/528328600027003838/" target="_blank">via</a> </td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-14890679738891072662017-08-18T23:15:00.001-07:002017-08-19T17:25:37.190-07:00bleeding [living] red<div style="text-align: center;">
blood </div>
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is the powerful liquid</div>
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that courses through our bodies.</div>
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we say without it we wouldn't be alive,</div>
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and perhaps that's why I love the color red so much. </div>
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it means life. </div>
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it's bold and unforgiving in being </div>
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itself.</div>
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it doesn't worry about what it should be,</div>
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or if it looks good as other colors,</div>
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it just <i>is</i>.</div>
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fearlessly being the color that some people</div>
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and other's</div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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someone who is unafraid to be herself.<br />
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-50348808194117288442017-05-21T23:24:00.005-07:002017-05-21T23:25:08.831-07:00that someday - is now<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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this is the day that we talked about for </div>
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so long.</div>
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these are the moments that we would dream about and plan</div>
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so thoughtfully.</div>
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I wonder what my 15 year old self would think</div>
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of 19 year old me. </div>
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she would probably be impressed, perhaps jealous.</div>
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she would probably think that she has no problems, </div>
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that she's healthy and never has bad days.</div>
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but it couldn't be farther from the truth.</div>
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yes, 19 me is in a much better place mentally;</div>
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and she's fulfilling one dream after another,</div>
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but she still has bad days.</div>
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she still trips and falls and has questions that never seem to have </div>
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she still stays up late and thinks deep thoughts.</div>
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she still cries on a dime and finds faults with herself.</div>
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and you know what?</div>
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I'm fine with that.</div>
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I'm happy. happier than I've ever been.</div>
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because with every struggle there's a blessing to count.</div>
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and with every unanswered question, late night, and bad day,</div>
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there's my God welcomes me with open arms.</div>
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I want to live for what I've been given.</div>
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I don't want to perpetually live in the future wishing I could see what it holds.</div>
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I want to live in the now, where I'm happy and thriving.</div>
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because young me <i>would be</i> excited to someday reach the stage </div>
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I'm in now. </div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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nothing I could really lose if I had Him<br />
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-79166938426133871872017-03-22T22:43:00.001-07:002017-03-22T22:43:39.477-07:00ashes & angst<div style="text-align: center;">
what have we here?</div>
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teenage angst?</div>
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just when we thought it was over.</div>
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but perhaps I don't want it to be over.</div>
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as painful as it can be, </div>
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I always learn from it.</div>
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with each little [big] lesson I learn,</div>
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a part of me dies;</div>
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and in place of it, a new part grows.</div>
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like a beautiful daisy amongst the </div>
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and each year I look back and see how each part of me</div>
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flower by flower,</div>
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into a new person.</div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">it hurt because it mattered<br /><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><i>-john green</i> |<i> <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/528328600021180261/" target="_blank">via</a></i></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-38806790343983244662017-03-21T00:14:00.001-07:002017-03-21T00:16:31.730-07:00faithful old friend<div style="text-align: center;">
hello little blog,</div>
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I've missed talking to you.</div>
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you used to be my constant companion.</div>
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through every heartache,</div>
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every revelation,</div>
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you were here:</div>
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waiting.</div>
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you let me scribble my words across your white pages,</div>
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not asking for an explanation </div>
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or telling me I was overthinking it.</div>
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I could be honest with you,</div>
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because there was no fear in what your response would be:</div>
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it was forever and always a comforting silence.</div>
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that silence got me through a lot.</div>
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no matter what was on my heart I could spill it all, </div>
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and end up at the feet of my Savior.</div>
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His peaceful embrace that followed was what made it </div>
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worth it.</div>
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I get a little choked up seeing how far I've come.</div>
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I no longer come to you with tears and confusion,</div>
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but with joy and excitement.</div>
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I'll never forget how you let me see the Light in life</div>
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by simply being </div>
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silent.</div>
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I hope you'll let me continue to use you for my thoughts,</div>
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to work them out and always,</div>
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forever,</div>
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be led back to Jesus.</div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">focus on Jesus. love others. speak hope.<br />
<span style="font-size: xx-small;"><i>-unknown </i>| <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/101542166579032596/" style="font-style: italic;" target="_blank">via</a></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-80964538775342836302017-02-05T23:20:00.000-08:002017-02-05T23:20:24.582-08:00love<div style="text-align: center;">
give me love in all its glory,</div>
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a glorious love.</div>
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but at the end of the day,</div>
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at the end of my life,</div>
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give me an honest love.</div>
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one that is simple,</div>
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but complicated. </div>
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one that radiates love for Christ.</div>
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one that is content with being common</div>
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and plain,</div>
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yet in the end </div>
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outshines the rest. </div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">'we rise by lifting others'<br /><i><span style="font-size: xx-small;">unknown | <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/" target="_blank">via</a></span></i></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-69206800790965428232017-01-22T21:06:00.000-08:002017-01-22T21:07:42.622-08:00awkwardly raw<div style="text-align: center;">
I appreciate rawness.</div>
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raw art,</div>
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raw emotion,</div>
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raw passion.</div>
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But while that's all nice and well,</div>
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it's one thing to say it and another</div>
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to <i>actually</i> appreciate it.</div>
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I've learned over the past year that there are times when rawness is painful;</div>
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when it's not easy to love and even harder to appreciate.</div>
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I catch myself turning a blind eye to things; considering them awkward instead of raw.</div>
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Which is true, awkwardness and rawness are often interchangeable.</div>
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We have to choose to view them as raw and beautiful instead of awkward and ugly.</div>
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The reason I'm going on this tangent is because I recently attempted a podcast.</div>
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"attempted" is the key word here.</div>
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I've had a lot of thoughts lately on the subject of body image and self-love,</div>
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especially after having a conversation with a friend on these topics,</div>
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and I wanted to write a blog post about it.</div>
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However, I've been swamped with the life of work and college and I haven't had a moments chance to write it all down.</div>
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Cue the podcast.</div>
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One time on the drive home I turned on the podcast recording and just started talking.</div>
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It's awkward, it's raw.</div>
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There's no music, no smooth introduction or thought-out plan of attack. There are awkward silences as I turn the corner, you can hear my blinker, and I probably lost my train of thought at one point.</div>
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It's just me talking in the dark about something that's been on my mind.</div>
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I debated for a long time whether I should share it or not.</div>
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I thought maybe I should re-record it; maybe I should try fixing it up with cuts and music.</div>
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But then I told myself "no"</div>
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I've striven so many times for things be "perfectly raw"</div>
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that maybe it's time for "awkwardly raw"</div>
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So here's my podcast,</div>
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cringe if you may, but know</div>
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it comes from my heart.</div>
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<iframe frameborder="0" height="100" id="audio_iframe" scrolling="no" src="https://www.podbean.com/media/player/y6ygf-6696a0" width="100%"></iframe>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">"Don't believe in your strength, believe in His strength."<br />
<span style="font-size: xx-small;">-Eva | <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/528328600017152964/" target="_blank">via</a></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-63251757387410951542016-12-30T22:02:00.001-08:002016-12-30T22:02:10.786-08:00at dusk<div style="text-align: center;">
my favorite evenings are the ones with </div>
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ombre pink skies that whisper farewell to the busy streets.</div>
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the ones that light up the clouds with a soft glow</div>
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making them look like cotton candy</div>
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purple and pink</div>
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drifting slowly across the sky.</div>
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the ones that fill the valleys with a fog that</div>
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gently wraps the the earth in it's blanket.</div>
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the ones that sends the sun to bed with a song</div>
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that sings of lovers quiet conversations.</div>
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the ones that call the stars out early,</div>
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to shine brightly in the the still lit sky,</div>
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pink and dusky though it may be. </div>
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my favorite evenings are the ones that I am content;</div>
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quiet, happy, thinking of memories,</div>
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the sunset,</div>
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conversation,</div>
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and how darn beautiful the sky is.</div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">there is always music amongst the trees, and in the garden, <br />but our hearts must be still to hear it.<br /><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><i>minnie aumonier | <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/528328600021087135/" target="_blank">via</a></i></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-12509614374296883572016-12-24T00:01:00.000-08:002016-12-24T00:01:52.246-08:00late night questions <div style="text-align: center;">
how do people exist? </div>
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I wonder at what goes on in their minds....</div>
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what lives in their thought life? </div>
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what do they fear? </div>
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what do they love? </div>
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what do they think of humanity? </div>
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of God's love?</div>
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do they love someone? </div>
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does that person love them back? </div>
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do they get lonely late at night? </div>
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what happens when they have dark thoughts? </div>
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do they cry? </div>
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do they scream? </div>
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do they talk to someone about it or bottle it all up inside?</div>
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it's these questions that I find intriguing. </div>
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it's <i>people</i> that I find intriguing. </div>
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but sometimes I feel like a bother. </div>
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like talking to me means taking time out of the real conversations... </div>
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one's the other person would rather be having. </div>
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I talk a lot, I have a lot of opinions. </div>
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I sometimes don't know what to say...</div>
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do they go away happy? </div>
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are they glad they talked with me? </div>
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do they feel like they've had a worthwhile conversation?</div>
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or is it just small talk until they can escape my eager conversation?</div>
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words</div>
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piled </div>
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on </div>
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words.</div>
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fears behind the mouth,</div>
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questions behind the eyes,</div>
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hungry for friendships,</div>
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for love,</div>
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in the simplest, </div>
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most honest and innocent way possible.</div>
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vulnerability is a frightening thing, </div>
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but when people ask you to open up </div>
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it's freeing.</div>
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yet I tear myself down with these fears and doubts,</div>
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convincing myself that no one,</div>
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<i>really</i></div>
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wants to talk with me.</div>
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how do I do that?</div>
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how do WE do that?</div>
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I know I'm not alone, </div>
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I know that with a new year comes new fears,</div>
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but I also know that God is faithful to </div>
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still those fears.</div>
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time and time again</div>
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He calms my mind and reassures </div>
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me of the great love I've been blessed with.</div>
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both from Him</div>
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and from others.</div>
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if you're having doubts and fears,</div>
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promise me you won't forget that either.</div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">look for Christ and you will find Him. <br />and with Him, everything else<br /><span style="font-size: xx-small;">c.s lewis | <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/528328600021086972/" target="_blank">via</a></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-45562016880034556362016-12-06T21:22:00.002-08:002016-12-06T21:22:23.843-08:00silence recieved<div style="text-align: center;">
i'm calling for you across this</div>
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static.</div>
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do you hear me?</div>
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over</div>
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and out. </div>
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i never get a reply,</div>
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just static.</div>
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always static.</div>
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please, why </div>
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why</div>
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why</div>
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why.</div>
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i know why, </div>
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you know why,</div>
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you've moved on.</div>
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away from the radio</div>
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away from me.</div>
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but i still sit here, </div>
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calling your name into the radio,</div>
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stating "over and out"</div>
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until the sun rises and i tell myself,</div>
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this dream has ended.</div>
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you should move on,</div>
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away,</div>
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too.</div>
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___</div>
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here's a sappy post for you guys.</div>
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I'm honestly not going through heartbreak, </div>
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I just loved the idea of radio, static, and calling into the void</div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">"Be human to the fullest"<br /><span style="font-size: xx-small;">-unknown | <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/528328600020207373/" target="_blank">via</a></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-69461854716328740572016-10-28T22:35:00.002-07:002016-10-28T22:36:01.979-07:00My Life | His Art<div style="text-align: center;">
sometimes I sit in the dark,</div>
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listening to music,</div>
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and just feel the weight of my life.</div>
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all of the heartache, the joys, the moments,</div>
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the silence,</div>
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it has all made me who I am.</div>
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the story of my life weaved through singular strings,</div>
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every string different than the other.</div>
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every person that has come and gone,</div>
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whether their role a positive or negative impact,</div>
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is a part of the story.</div>
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and I can't be mad can I?</div>
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even if sometimes I feel like punching something,</div>
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from the pain they caused;</div>
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I can't change what they've done, </div>
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I can only embrace it.</div>
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I can't raise any part of my life to a </div>
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high level of importance; </div>
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I can't praise to the heavens the people that had a positive impact;</div>
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or plummet to the ground those with negative results.</div>
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I can't say "a particular moment in my life" changed my life, </div>
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or formed my life.</div>
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because moments,</div>
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people, </div>
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they <i>don't</i> form your life. </div>
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they take a part in what is your life,</div>
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but they can't change your life, </div>
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or direct it in a particular direction.</div>
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only <i>Jesus</i> can do that.</div>
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He's the one, all these years,</div>
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that's been weaving my story,</div>
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allowing things to happen,</div>
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putting people in my life,</div>
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taking them out,</div>
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I am who I am today because of HIM</div>
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and not because of anything, </div>
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or <i>anyone,</i> </div>
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else.</div>
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while this hard to remember, </div>
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and easy to forget,</div>
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it's true. </div>
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and in moments like this,</div>
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sitting in dark,</div>
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I feel it. </div>
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I feel the peace of having no control over my life,</div>
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of accepting the pain and the joys as a part of His plan,</div>
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and allowing Him to create what He will.</div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">God is love. He didn't need us, but he <i>wanted</i> us. <br />
And that is the most amazing thing<br />
<span style="font-size: xx-small;">-unkown | <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/528328600014963076/" target="_blank">via</a></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-75645773822003678392016-10-16T21:08:00.003-07:002016-10-16T21:09:32.415-07:00He alone<div style="text-align: center;">
I scrape</div>
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I claw</div>
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I cut.</div>
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I struggle,</div>
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struggle</div>
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for freedom.</div>
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finally</div>
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I'm free,</div>
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but then realize</div>
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I'm not.</div>
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I feel like Eustace.</div>
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I've felt the suffocation of my skin,</div>
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as I realize how sinful I am.</div>
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I've struggled as I removed my skin so many times,</div>
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clawing it off my body, </div>
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time and time again.</div>
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I've stepped out of it, feeling like a newborn creature</div>
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reveling in the breeze and the feeling of freedom.</div>
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I've danced and shouted as I looked to the future,</div>
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the future where I have no dead, sinful skin, hanging on me</div>
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weighing me down</div>
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causing me to stumble and fall</div>
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and injure myself.</div>
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I've run over to the pool of water,</div>
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in excitement,</div>
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to gaze at the new me only to find</div>
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there it is.</div>
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the dead skin,</div>
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hanging on me like it has so many times before.</div>
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I failed </div>
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again.</div>
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Just like Eustace, </div>
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I've realized,</div>
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I could claw it off a thousand times over,</div>
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but Jesus is the one who can really [fully] cut it off.</div>
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Every night I ask Him to remove the skin,</div>
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because I can't;</div>
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and I'm exhausted from trying.</div>
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Let me collapse into your waiting arms,</div>
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Dear Savior,</div>
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You are the only One that gives me </div>
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real peace.</div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">He alone is sufficient. He alone satisfies. He alone sustains.<br /><span style="font-size: xx-small;">unknown | <a href="https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/564x/2d/74/88/2d74886ac3118b07e676dc5042e52547.jpg" target="_blank">via</a></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-30064542100409319542016-09-23T20:47:00.002-07:002016-09-23T20:50:03.512-07:00Falling in Love with Life<div style="text-align: center;">
I spent my life waiting for it to begin.</div>
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Thinking I wasn't really living until I went traveling, </div>
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or made great things, or had a life "worth" telling about.</div>
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The longer I waited, the more discontent I became; </div>
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I compared my life, my activities, and art to those of other </div>
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and in the process destroyed myself</div>
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and my happiness.</div>
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It took the removal of happiness and the barren wasteland of what appeared to be my life, </div>
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before I cried out and clung to the last thing that stood tall: Jesus Christ</div>
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<br /></div>
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He taught me that being <i>truly</i> alive does not come through have a fascinating, </div>
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complicated life worth telling about, it comes through the little things. </div>
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It comes through:</div>
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<br /></div>
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serving others</div>
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tea</div>
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music</div>
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sunshine</div>
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making art</div>
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encouraging others</div>
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writing</div>
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waking up early </div>
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reading His word </div>
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learning</div>
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being <i>human</i></div>
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smiling </div>
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playing piano</div>
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working hard </div>
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family</div>
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plants</div>
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Sundays</div>
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the earth </div>
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reading books</div>
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making plans/goals</div>
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salvation from Him</div>
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the earth</div>
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silence </div>
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In Ecclesiastes, Solomon says: </div>
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"Here is what I have seen to be good and fitting; </div>
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to eat, to drink, and to enjoy oneself in all one's labor in which </div>
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he toils under the sun during the few years of his life which </div>
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God has given him; for this is his reward."</div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">[5:18] </span></div>
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I used to be slightly confused by this statement. </div>
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I understood Solomon's claim that "The conclusion, when all has been heard, is: </div>
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fear God and keep His commandments, because this applies to ever person", </div>
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but when he says to basically "eat, drink and be merry" it seemed a little shallow. </div>
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But as he goes over everything he's basically pointing out:</div>
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"hey, stop worrying about money, stop worrying about your life </div>
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(who knows what will happen with your stuff/life after you die), and just</div>
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ENJOY IT.</div>
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And now, I understand that; I see his point. </div>
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It was through real life experience and the process of the Holy Spirit </div>
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working in my life that I learned that same truth.</div>
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How amazing it is that God's word is alive and active and how, as we live our lives, </div>
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we see it's truths come to light in ways we never thought we would. </div>
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So I beg you, dwell on these verses</div>
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[ecc. 5:18 + 12:13]</div>
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and realize that you do not need to rise to any standard society sets.</div>
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Your life is yours and God's, and that is it. </div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;">-unknown | <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/528328600019124554/" target="_blank">via</a></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com18tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-7682299517315288602016-09-01T21:47:00.000-07:002016-09-01T21:49:03.662-07:00YOU'RE NOT ALONE<div style="text-align: center;">
| Be who you needed when you were younger |</div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">| unkown |</span></div>
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If you've been reading my blog for awhile, </div>
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then you may know that I struggled with depression, doubt, </div>
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unanswered questions, and fear a lot during 2014-2015.</div>
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While people say you can tell them anything and reassure you that they're there for you,</div>
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there's something about depression (or whatever you prefer to call it)</div>
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that clamps your mouth shut.</div>
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That whispers no one cares, no one will understand,</div>
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that it would be better to keep it bottled up inside </div>
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{where it can infect the mind}</div>
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I know that feeling,</div>
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That feeling of suffocation,</div>
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exasperation, </div>
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and fear.</div>
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I've heard that sick, hot, whisper in your ear.</div>
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And I've listened to it.</div>
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But I'm here to ask you,</div>
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to beg you:</div>
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DO NOT </div>
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LISTEN</div>
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DO NOT </div>
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OBEY</div>
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It's a liar, its a cheat, </div>
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it's a ghost inside your head,</div>
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and it should have no,</div>
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I repeat, </div>
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NO,</div>
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control over you.</div>
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I started this post with a quote,</div>
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a quote that I have often gone back to in the </div>
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past year. In those days, nights, months of dark thoughts I would have loved </div>
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to have some one who just walked up and say </div>
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"I know what you're going through and here's the solution."</div>
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But life doesn't work that way, no one can see past the masks you wear, </div>
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and no one has the perfect solution.</div>
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{Except Christ. He always see's past your mask,</div>
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and friend,</div>
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<i>He is the solution</i>}</div>
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So maybe life real life doesn't work out so smoothly.</div>
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Maybe it's not so simple to walk up to someone and tell them you've </div>
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waged wars in your head as well; that no, you're not alone. |-/</div>
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However, in the last 2 years, I have discovered how <i>amazingly</i> </div>
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encouraging blogging can be. </div>
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Its sometimes frightening to be vulnerable and write a post about the </div>
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dark thoughts one struggles with, but then. </div>
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Then.</div>
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You realize you're not alone.</div>
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People comment with "This is so relatable!"</div>
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"I know exactly what you mean"</div>
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or even better,</div>
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"Thank you for this blog post it was so encouraging"</div>
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"This made my day brighter"</div>
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"Thank you for reminding me I'm not alone."</div>
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These comments are <i>why</i> I blog. It's my purpose for all of this,</div>
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its the reason I continue to post such "strange" posts.</div>
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Because while they're strange to some people, </div>
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there are other's who I KNOW need to hear it.</div>
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I'm not just speaking into the empty space, </div>
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I'm spilling my fears to friends. </div>
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The response to my last blog post blew me <i>away</i>. </div>
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It was a small journal entry I had jotted down weeks earlier, </div>
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and decided to share with the blogging community.</div>
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The comments just make me want to cry. </div>
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The post was SO SHORT, </div>
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but people loved it, and related to it, and it reminded them how important </div>
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it is to watch what you're feeding your mind.</div>
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If you were one of those people who commented:</div>
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THANK YOU</div>
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bless you darlings. </div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">{after I finish this post I'm going to go reply to all the </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">comments, so be sure to go back and read them}</span></div>
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Kate from <a href="http://www.thegoodnessrevolt.com/" target="_blank">The Goodness Revolt </a> has also seen the power of blogging, </div>
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and for years has been writing blog posts that encourage <i>so many </i>young people.</div>
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Recently she has started to explore the concept of bringing bloggers together into one blog.</div>
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And she has succeed in bringing to life this blog; a blog that is everything </div>
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you needed when you were younger.</div>
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<i><a href="http://www.burningyouth.com/" target="_blank">Burning Youth </a></i></div>
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It is the gentle voice telling you:</div>
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<i>you're not alone</i></div>
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<i>you are loved </i></div>
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<i>YOU ARE WORTH IT</i></div>
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It's amazing what happens when we come together,</div>
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what we can accomplish with Jesus as our Captain.</div>
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Be sure to visit Burning Youth and check out the amazing gals and their posts!</div>
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Stay Alive |-/</div>
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-Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">I hope there are days when you fall in love with being alive.<br />
<span style="font-size: xx-small;">-unkown | via</span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com18tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-66305346267992613682016-08-15T23:25:00.002-07:002016-08-15T23:25:52.270-07:00Don't Let Them In<div style="text-align: center;">
Tell me,</div>
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what do you tell yourself </div>
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at night?</div>
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When the barriers disappear,</div>
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in the evening light,</div>
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and all of your fears </div>
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f l o o d</div>
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into sight?</div>
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What untruths, lies, deception + fraud do </div>
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you feed your </div>
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mind to</div>
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F I G H T?</div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><i>Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts.</i><br /><span style="font-size: xx-small;">-Colossians 3:15 |<a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/528328600019157268/" target="_blank"> via</a></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com25tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-12924454174251196922016-07-26T23:20:00.000-07:002016-07-26T23:21:24.531-07:00It's in us.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<i>Pride leads to every other vice: </i></div>
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<i>it is the complete anti-God state of mind.</i></div>
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| c.s lewis |</div>
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What is this disease? </div>
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This deadly, silent sin that sits like lord of the underworld,</div>
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laughing at us.</div>
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We scurry around the surface </div>
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plucking at the weeds,</div>
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thinking that selfishness, fear, cruelty, anger, </div>
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[my friend, the list goes on]</div>
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thinking these all begin and end,</div>
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with no relation to each other.</div>
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Oh yes,</div>
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we think we know the problem, </div>
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we think we know the fix,</div>
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but when someone says, </div>
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"perhaps its pride"</div>
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we lash out in annoyance </div>
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saying,</div>
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"oh it's not me, it's just _____".</div>
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There's always something else to blame it on, </div>
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someone else to point at,</div>
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but we never turn the finger to our chest </div>
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to reveal,</div>
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<i>it is</i> only us.</div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><i>Pride is spiritual cancer: it eats up the very possibility of love, <br />or contentment, or even common sense.</i><br />
<span style="font-size: xx-small;"> C.S Lewis | <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/528328600018977091/" target="_blank">via</a></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-82375687649194996122016-07-08T23:00:00.001-07:002016-07-08T23:03:10.027-07:00Alive in Him | Alive for Him<div style="text-align: center;">
Do not waste your time on simply thinking,</div>
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But live it with actions coloring your life.</div>
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It is not for futile that we are here on this earth, for God has saved us for a reason.</div>
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To live for Him,</div>
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To be <i>really</i> alive.</div>
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<span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;"><i><span class="text Eph-2-1" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 24px;">"And you were <span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NASB-29231A" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NASB-29231A" title="See cross-reference A">A</a>)" style="box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span>dead in your trespasses and sins,</span><span class="text Eph-2-2" id="en-NASB-29232" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 24px;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"> </span></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #4c1130; font-family: inherit;"><span class="text Eph-2-2" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: inherit; line-height: 24px;"><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">i<span style="font-family: inherit;">n which</span> you <span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NASB-29232B" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NASB-29232B" title="See cross-reference B">B</a>)" style="box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span>formerly walked according to the course of <span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NASB-29232C" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NASB-29232C" title="See cross-reference C">C</a>)" style="box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span>this world....</span></i></span></span></div>
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<span class="text Eph-2-4" id="en-NASB-29234" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 24px;"><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">...But God, being <span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NASB-29234K" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NASB-29234K" title="See cross-reference K">K</a>)" style="box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span>rich in mercy, </span></i></span></div>
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<i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;"><span class="text Eph-2-4" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 24px;">because of <span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NASB-29234L" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NASB-29234L" title="See cross-reference L">L</a>)" style="box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span>His great love with which He loved us,</span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 24px;"> </span></span></i></div>
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<span class="text Eph-2-5" id="en-NASB-29235" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 24px;"><i><span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;">even when we were <span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NASB-29235M" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NASB-29235M" title="See cross-reference M">M</a>)" style="box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span>dead in our transgressions, </span></i></span></div>
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<span class="text Eph-2-5" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 24px;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;"><i>made us alive together with Christ, </i></span></span></div>
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<span class="text Eph-2-5" style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 24px;"><span style="color: #444444; font-family: inherit;"><i>(by <b>grace</b> you have been saved)"</i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">Ephesians 2:1-5</span></div>
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A reminder for you... and for me :)</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><i>Remember that you do not ever look into the eyes <br />of someone whom God does not love</i><br />
<span style="font-size: xx-small;">-unkown | <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/AaoMwwTk7gFCg6XoHUvqIpjzvI3o6AqZp-5xpzQklXFlq0r0wZiHAbM/" target="_blank">via</a></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-83072073881268737822016-06-06T22:00:00.002-07:002016-06-06T22:00:53.163-07:00Act Now<div style="text-align: center;">
Blood</div>
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boils,</div>
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long</div>
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and lasting.</div>
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Sun</div>
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glares,</div>
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harsh</div>
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and burning.</div>
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The chin tilts up,</div>
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the spirit of determination </div>
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dancing,</div>
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in her eyes.</div>
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We think the past defines who we are;</div>
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we think the future defines who we are;</div>
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but neither do.</div>
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The actions fueled by our burning blood,</div>
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by the beating sun,</div>
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those are what define us.</div>
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Our actions, our responses, </div>
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our interactions, </div>
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the here,</div>
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the now,</div>
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they define us.</div>
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Who are you right now?</div>
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<3 Eva </div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Life is too deep for words,<br />so don't try to describe it, just live it.<br /><span style="font-size: xx-small;">C.s Lewis | via Pinterest </span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com18tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-2095353573666780552016-06-02T22:08:00.003-07:002016-06-02T22:08:37.901-07:00Summer's Night<div style="text-align: center;">
I love you and oh,</div>
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what are we going to do?</div>
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I think I'm lost in this star gazing galaxy,</div>
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swinging your hand like we're idiots in love.</div>
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Oh but we are,</div>
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yes, forever lost in this galaxy we've created;</div>
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Waiting for the hush of the night to end, </div>
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and the hush of the morning to start. </div>
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Because we've been laying here staring at the stars,</div>
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and into your eyes,</div>
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the whole night long.</div>
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Oh yes, </div>
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we're idiots in love,</div>
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with sappy sonnets and sarcastic quips that would make a sane man sick,</div>
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but we're not sane, we're mad;</div>
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mad with love for each other,</div>
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the stars,</div>
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and The One who made both. </div>
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No, I am not in love.<br />
But who said you can't write about it?</div>
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<3 Eva<br />
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-25448670120924118792016-05-31T22:14:00.003-07:002016-05-31T22:14:39.959-07:00Embrace It<div style="text-align: center;">
And then the foreboding creature took form.</div>
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It was not a monster to be feared with trembling and shying of eyes,</div>
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but embraced with the warmth of a dear friend waiting for you to arrive.</div>
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It had been wanting to show you things,</div>
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to take you on adventures,</div>
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and teach you lessons close to Its heart.</div>
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You would grow close in mind and close </div>
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in years until you would laugh at your old self </div>
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saying,</div>
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"<i>I use to fear it, you know,</i></div>
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<i>I used to fear The Future</i>"</div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><i>Things change, people change,</i><br /><i>but God remains.</i><br /><span style="font-size: xx-small;">Unknown | <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/528328600017266185/" target="_blank">via</a></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-46613704003521991902016-05-30T18:24:00.003-07:002016-05-30T18:26:30.260-07:00A Moment<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I love a life that is full of sunshine, </div>
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of smiles and laughter from the ones that somehow</div>
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drive you crazy with annoyance and love,</div>
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at the same time.</div>
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I love a life full of memories;</div>
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like sitting on the roof reading while gazing at your</div>
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childhood playground.</div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;">P.s I want to thank those of you who left such encouraging comments </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;">on my frustrated<a href="http://intothewesternwild.blogspot.com/2016/04/peace-will-win-fear-will-lose.html" target="_blank"> post</a> back in April. They inspired me to keep going though </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;">I seemed to</span><span style="font-size: xx-small;"> have lost my momentum. So again, thank you! <3 </span></div>
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we're probably to full of ourselves.<br />
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-77375699828785787422016-05-25T20:12:00.001-07:002016-05-25T20:12:56.860-07:00Untitled<div style="text-align: center;">
Life is an endless equation:</div>
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There are countless variables </div>
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and numerous answers.</div>
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Sometimes I have too many questions,</div>
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and other times</div>
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not enough.</div>
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We romanticize pain + suffering</div>
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and hate heartbreak.</div>
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We love the sound of the shatter,</div>
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but loathe the wound of the broken glass.</div>
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___________</div>
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A disjointed diary entry from </div>
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-Eva</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Where sin runs,<br />
His Love runs deeper.<br />
<span style="font-size: xx-small;">-unknown | <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/pin/528328600017154229/" target="_blank">via</a></span></td></tr>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-45036421982548722162016-04-15T21:47:00.001-07:002016-04-15T21:47:34.319-07:00Peace Will Win // Fear Will Lose<div style="text-align: center;">
I don't know what I want to say.</div>
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That is the harsh truth.</div>
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I have so much on my heart right now. I don't even know how to/what to share. It just weighs on my heart.</div>
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I think about my readers, I think about the community. What would they think of ____? Should I write that? Would it be deserving? Would it sound like a teenager's stupid opinion?</div>
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I don't even know. I hate pressure. I feel that I've create pressure for myself with this new direction. I use to be able to hide behind my cryptic poetry, it was comforting and I found relief in it. If someone wanted to know what it meant, they could come talk to me. </div>
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But this blank white page with its harsh openness scares me. I'm scared to say what I think for fear of ridicule, even if its in the best of ways. I'm scared of being wrong, scared of not being what I'm suppose to be. What is over-reacting and what is being myself? Where's the limit? Where's the line? Is there a line? How do I express myself when I don't even know what it is I want to express? </div>
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This is a block. </div>
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This is the harsh reality. This is the messy bits of life that social media doesn't show you. </div>
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This is the perfect imperfection that people hide:</div>
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including myself.</div>
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Evelynhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11130656303566915681noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7946488663028420074.post-49700643732546331542016-04-05T21:24:00.002-07:002016-04-05T21:24:58.198-07:00 We Have Our Heading!<div style="text-align: center;">
This blog has been receiving a makeover; as I am sure you have observed.</div>
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I have been doing a lot for thinking about what I'm expecting from the next year of blogging; and have come to several conclusions.</div>
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I want it to be same as ever: a place where I express myself and thoughts weighing on my mind. Sometimes you just need to spill - not necessarily to anyone in particular, but to simply get it out of one's head. </div>
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I want the opportunity to express myself in more conversational style. </div>
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I have learned so much with my poetic non-poems, and I will never stop writing them. </div>
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(indeed they will grace these pages again, do not fear) </div>
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But sometimes I have topics that would do better with a more straightforward point of view.</div>
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That is one of the reasons I re-designed my blog: to make those conversational posts more natural.</div>
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(P.s I totally copied Olivia's design. I am not ashamed because her blog is beautiful and honest. </div>
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Go check it out:<a href="http://summerof1999.blogspot.com/" target="_blank"> Summer of 1999</a>) </div>
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I want to involve the readers more. I never thought I would have people who read and loved my writing so faithfully: but I <i>do</i>. And this year, I want it to be less about me and more about the community as we love Jesus together.</div>
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Perhaps this blog post is to remind myself of the changes I want to make, and perhaps it is to excite you about the changes that are coming.</div>
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Whichever one it is,</div>
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<i>I'm </i>excited and look forward to the happenings of this blog in 2016. </div>
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<3 Eva</div>
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<i>I will sing praise to my God as long as I live.</i><br />
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