Sunday, October 16, 2016

He alone

I scrape

I claw

I cut.

I struggle,

struggle

for freedom.

finally

I'm free,

but then realize

I'm not.

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I feel like Eustace.

I've felt the suffocation of my skin,

as I realize how sinful I am.

I've struggled as I removed my skin so many times,

clawing it off my body, 

time and time again.

I've stepped out of it, feeling like a newborn creature

reveling in the breeze and the feeling of freedom.

I've danced and shouted as I looked to the future,

the future where I have no dead, sinful skin, hanging on me

weighing me down

causing me to stumble and fall

and injure myself.

I've run over to the pool of water,

in excitement,

to gaze at the new me only to find

there it is.

the dead skin,

hanging on me like it has so many times before.

I failed 

again.

Just like Eustace, 

I've realized,

I could claw it off a thousand times over,

but Jesus is the one who can really [fully] cut it off.

Every night I ask Him to remove the skin,

because I can't;

and I'm exhausted from trying.

Let me collapse into your waiting arms,

Dear Savior,

You are the only One that gives me 

real peace.

<3 Eva
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He alone is sufficient. He alone satisfies. He alone sustains.
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8 comments:

  1. WATER TO THE THIRSTY SOUL.
    that's what this is. and God knew and I'm tired and He's good and oh man I'm running out of words because all I can do is fall into His arms.
    ow ow ow. i know this like nothing ELSE.
    He is good.
    trusting that. x

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  2. This was SO powerful, Ashly! <3 I REALLY, REALLY, enjoyed reading this post, and I can relate to this so much. Thank you. <3
    XOXO

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    1. thank you, thank you, Hannah! It means a lot that you enjoyed it so much <3

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  3. I read as far as the first picture and thought 'Eustace!' and then I kept reading, and your words totally capture everything in that scene that makes me cry(every time). And I don't cry at movies as a rule. Beautiful beautiful, so heartfelt and relatable to us all xx

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    1. YES THAT SCENE. especially in the book GAH LEWIS. thank you so much for your words, I'm glad I coudl capture the scene <333

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  4. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. wow. this.this.this.
    ANTHEM OF MY SOUL. I LOVE THIS. I LOVE YOU. asldkfjlsd.

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    1. OLIVIA YOU'RE JUST SDFHAJEIT THANK YOU THIS COMMENT MADE ME SO HAPPY

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